{Saturday, January 12, 2013} 9:36 PM
The dynamics of our friendship has changed since the last time we truly spent time with each other. I may keep denying that i havent change but in your opinion, i may have changed completely. Maybe its true, maybe its not. For me, you have not changed, i know that deep down you are still that girl that i last saw. But circumstances, surroundings have changed drastically and i know that this has a huge impact on you. I'm still waiting for you to open up, but i dont mind if you dont. Your behaviour, attitude, impression on things may have changed based on the past experiences that you experienced in my absence. As a result, it impacted our friendship too, one way or another. I feel like i can no longer connect with you like i used to, its like... we have lost touch. You were once able to read my expressions well and interpret accurately what i felt. At one point of time, only you were able to do it. But now, you have much bigger larger things in mind. I, too, can no longer understand those new expressions that you put up. This feels much like a new beginning again, like we are still trying to understand each other, like how couples are in their "honeymoon" period. For a long time i was sad that we were no longer like before but now i can sort of understand. For those times i werent there, someone else was and now that they are more relatable your present, i become a shadow in the past. It used to break my heart but this year imma look at the positive side. At least we're still friends and we're talking and thats a progress right there. There was a point of time that my love for you was so great that i felt that nothing could come between us and i had such great hope for this friendship to really last. Now, i still feel the same. Honestly, i can still see us being friends, 10/15/30 years down the road. Though it may not be the same like before, it will evolve into something else, something special, and that i am quite positive about.

Other than that, i really love how much time i am spending catching up with friends that i've missed so much. And i cant wait for february, for there is a surprise awaiting hehehehehe