It feels like i've been here before, only that this time it is more... defined. The disappointment, the despair, the feeling of fighting for air... these feelings have been seemed to be magnified by like x1000. And it wasnt that long ago, just roughly about 10 weeks ago.
It feels like i've hit rock bottom, twice. TWICE.
Experiencing this feeling again, twice, in such a short period of time, is really working wonders for my confidence level. Simply put, while it was at a line that seems blurry, now the line is really clear. And it seems to be somewhere .... low.
When you dont do well once, thats maybe just due to exam stress. But what logical explanation can you use to reason the nagging voice in ur head that this second failure is not really due to yourself/your efforts? Its perhaps due to.... exam stress?
You tried so hard, nearing your limit, and this is what you get. How, how to lift yourself up from pit bottom?
Yes i can try but i can kinda imagine the grades. And this imagination is seriously affecting me in all different ways.
I just need to stop imaging and just start working and really look out for what works.
I need to stop comparing and just... embrace the experience.
"What we resist, persists"
Its really just a month left, lets just go all out.