Memory lane does probably look like this right, long and entangled and there's the ups and downs. Some memories becomes the motivator behind you, the one that spurs you forward. While others......... are just simply best forgotten. It reminds you of the bitter past, what could have been, if i didnt change, if we didnt grow apart and all those questions that you think of every time you lay at night, alone, on your bed.
Perhaps thats why people selectively choose the memory they wanna keep for life and just disregard the rest. Because it'll seriously bring you down.

Anyway was just browsing some old posts with old pictures and memories of me you us came floating back into my mind and i realise its about time i hit the close button and put it aside and label it "Only when you're stronger"

Its not the end of exams and yet i act like it is!!!!!! Staying up late at night, have plans for the rest of the week, i am really kinda doomed. Its about time to pick up pace (hahahahahaha i say this all the time)

Prelims has been very miserable. I can say, its been the first time i feel so sucky after doing an exam. Its so common to say this but this time i really know what it feels like. Sometimes when i think of the potential result i can get, i feel like i might just pass out (ok exaggeration but you know what i mean). I seriously did very bad. 

But life goes on?

When i was younger people say PSLE is gonna be hard, then same was said for O levels. Then they say that at A levels, too, is gonna be tough. Recently my teacher said that the real world is.... much much much tougher. Hearing all this, of course fear starts building inside me. But i realised that of course its gonna be tough but we are prepared for it. We had intensive lessons for PSLE and O levels, with A's having to start very soon. Then when we go uni we get to experience a tiny bit of the real world and we are prep-ed for it there. Of course it is gonna be tough, no one said its gonna be easy but its not like we cant fight it right? We are prepared, armed and ready to go through it. This made me realise that i shouldnt be fearful. I am not entering the battle unarmed. I am entering it with all the preparation i can get.
And now, suddenly i dont feel scared anymore and know that the only thing i should fear is Him.