So holidays are here! Two little mini me are having the time of their life but they are fast becoming bored of it, having played all their games and ate all their snack during that one day of holiday yesterday-.-
Eventually they thought cycling would take their minds of things and even if it mean going round in circles outside, they were so happy about it. Kids, such innocent thinking and so clueless about the mountain of challenges that lies ahead.
This month is especially crucial because its time to get back on top and stronger. I dont have time for nonsense and so far i've tolerated it twice today. And that meant blowing my top, twice.
Its like, you are loaded with other burdens and yet you have to attend these things that you dont really wanna do but you do it anyway out of the goodwill of your heart and in the end, only you suffer you makan hati and buat sakit diri sendiri je. It is pissing me off and this is such a trait visible in such societies.
Its like those type of things
"hey what do you think of this dress on me?"
"well..... the colour doesnt suit you"
"omg how could you say that!!"
WHAT. You asked my opinion so i was trying to be really honest and tell you the truth WHICH YOU APPARENTLY CANT HANDLE.Oh gosh why do people do these type of things?
"i feel so sick..."
"why dont you get some rest"
"well.. i dont know..."
or "my stomach hurts"
"oh go drink some hot tea"
"well... i dont know..."
or "i am so bored"
"ok watch tv! there is this amazing show *starts explaining*"
"well... i dont know..."
WHAT of course you dont know YOU SIMPLY WONT TRY.
I dont understand why people subject themselves to feel such way. I mean ok i get it too all the time, the feeling like life is so...... and i just wanna bury myself in a whole but pls, sulk for one day and start finding ways to overcome and solve it. Like people are constantly bugged by anonymous questions online (yes targeted to you girl who didnt call) so why dont you just delete them or block it! And people who are always so pissed after being with some crowds, or after watching some show, or seeing their nemesis. I mean dont hang out with them, dont watch that show and close your eyes when u see the nemesis!!!!!! Why subject yourself to such anger, stress, pain, hurt all these negative feelings that will bring you down!
YOU HAVE A CHOICE. Make one that will value add your life and adds to your total well being and happiness as an individual.
Dont subject yourself to such pain. You are not hurting yourself but also those around you, only that they feel it more because they are sad to see you sad plus they feel so helpless at being unable to help you. Dont do this to your god blessed life.
(i can go on about this)
AHHHHH now all these people are bugging AND I DONT EVEN KNOW THEM PERSONALLY im going mad.
And please, utilise your school councillors. Not the ones who says the morning pledge but those who are stationed in your school to help you get through the day. Or better still, talk to Him who knows exactly what you feel for He is always listening, always there. Talk to God.
Not to human beings who already have plentiful to handle with.