I never said this but my resolution for 2011 was to never forget. Never forget the sacrifices my parents make, never forget that i should be scoring high marks to get to the course i want, never forget that im a girl so i should behave like one and never forget what mat/fp/c gave me and never forget why i am here right now. At first it sounded like a brilliant plan "yay now imma remember evrythg, good/bad, so whenever i get distracted or lost sight of the reason im doing this, i will always be reminded yay me!" Yea right, it was such a silly resolution!
But now i understand why you must forgive and forget! Because i decided not to forget what has happened, i find myself constantly searching into my past in 2011 just so i could remember evrythg, good/bad. And that was where it all went downhill. Because i decided not to forget, thus i remembered evrythg, 2011 was pretty emotional and i find myself lying in bed all alone at night every night becoming such an emotional wreck. I mean, in a way it did help a little, i did well enough in exams to go higher. But thats just about it. Because i decided to remember evrythg, my heart was pretty black at one point of time and all i wanted to do was shut everyone out because i remembered how i was hurt by them, deeply or not. That sucked, so bad.
So this year, no i am not gonna forget evrythg, im just gonna make practical resolution. But why must wait for the new yr to make them? I wanna make them every day, when i wake up.
Anyway moving on. You know how we are always arguing to prove that our point/idea is the "right" one? Okay like an example, you know of these extremist muslims who think what they are doing is their jihad and the right thing? It is not right as islam is a peaceful religion(assalamualaikum=may peace be upon you) so they deserve to be locked in jails right? Right. But i was watching this documentary and it was told from the extremist point of view and in that one hour, i realised that they are just doing what they believe is right. True, what they do is wrong but they have been in such condition for a long time till they believe what they doing is right. It was eye opening and it made me judge them on a whole new different level.
So right now i am not asleep because GUESS WHO HAS NO SCH TMR HAHAHAHAHHA gosh i really wanna watch Adele live.