{Saturday, December 17, 2011} 5:15 PM
I thought i was gonna die if mat or cintaku were to leave. Like the heartbreak would be too big for me to handle and all i could do was sleep on my bed, or be crying in it. I thought i would never survive... But i did, and now i can even look at their pictures and dont feel a thing. I can talk to them, without stammering over my words. I mean you must have been through this phase, that if he was to break your heart you would just die, there will be no air, and you need them just like the air you breathe you need them because when you're fifteen somebody tells you they love you you're gonna believe them. But i survived and really, it'll all get better in time.

So now should be no exception right, it'll just another one of those heartbreaks right? Yep thats what he'll be next week- THE PAST. And i dont remain 'friends' with the past.

Yesterday i had a great time with wondergirls eventhough Sah wasnt there. But three was alright and we exchanged views on different varying topics, boys being one of them. We have such opposites response and its enlightening to know their opinions on it. We lazed around and it was truly a Free and Easy Friday.
Yesterday night was great too because now i know what he feels like and i've told him what i felt and thats off my chest now and he is right about one thing, we all should in fact stand on the principle of moving on.

Today i went to meet KN cus guess who's birthday it is! We were to get to vivo for a celebration but the train broke down the skies opened up so ok why dont we just stay at ns9. Tomorrow will be a proper celebration at KN's place and it will be fantastic (and time to take my mind off fp)