They say you dont know what you have until it's gone. Well i always thought i knew what it meant but today, now, i realised that i dont really know how true true it can be. Of course previously i always use this line whenever i lose a certain gender(lets say... guys) "aww i miss you i srsly dont know what i had until i lost you, if only i realised how much you mean to me" EEK so cheesy but srsly when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you you're gonna believe them. But back to the point, today i just wish you'd come back.
I am looking at the time hoping you to hear you say hi but i know i'll have to just keep waiting. My heart is certainly heavy letting you go and now i just feel so .... lonely. I am tempted to call you but i cant and i know you probably wont pick up so i guess i'll just leave it as it is........
School was a surprise cus i enjoyed it. Its certainly the first in a long time. I had good laughs with my girls and i certainly didnt realise how they are involved in my life. Just that day i went to buy food and was looking for a friend to sit with. My girls were in the lib studying so i was practically alone. I mean i saw my other friends but they were with their own set of friends so in the end i just ate my food in silence with them (ugh shoo uncomfortable) and ran back to the lib to meet my girls. When i saw them i just feel like crying (call it a girl thing) cus i was just so happy to feel belonged again (eventhough its just been 15 mins but still!).
Oh well there is nothing interesting happening in my life im still the girl that faiz hope would change.
"Imma look for someone that i can have comfortable silences with"
"Imma look for someone that i can have comfortable silences with"