I think i blog to get sympathy. To get ppl to sympathise my situation and forgive me for behaving the way i do. To get ppl to understand my certain acts and not ask much. To let them knw how to act around me when i get into that certain mood. Cus most of them would behave in a way so different from the way i expect them to behave and it'd really get on my nerve. You are alrdy piss off and these ppl around you act and talk in certain ways that makes you more pissed off. Sometimes i wanna shout and ask to for them to understand me better. And then i realised that they dont understand(probably dont even care). And then remembered that they dont even read my blog. And here i come. Back to complaining to the cyber world, like i really have no real life friends. Its really how i feel, they are either uncontactable, just too busy(but im supposedly the one schooling) or just cant seem to give the right advice and say the right words i wanna hear.
So cyber world, anyone out there, hear me out.
Have you ever had smthg all your life and now suddenly you dont have it anymore? Its like your identity is being taken away from you. The way ppl recognise you and respect you is because of that certain thing and now you just dont have it anymore. It is really depressing. Cliché; i never asked for it. I've had it for some time but now i dont have it anymore. It is difficult for me to really explain cus i really dont wanna get into details, this is the big World Wide Web hellooooo. But then again since im already half into the story...
What actually happened was . . .