Hi i am so full of energy now, like almost bursting with it. There is something big coming up and i can hardly wait even though the process of preparing it all is very long and exhausting. But im very sure that i wouldnt regret the process and would go thru it over and over again if given the option. So the meeting went on for longer then we expected and the amount of things we debated over and talked about actually wont really really matter that much on that day but who cares? Its the part where i get to meet them and work with them again that matters. Kan best best woohoo tak sabar. Camp Instructors (L)
School, for the rest of the ppl, are starting soon and im still enjoying my holidays. I think i better enjoy whats left of it before my school term starts. The best part about this holiday is that i dont need to think. I dont have any homework to do or revision to start since im not sure where i'll go next. It is so good for my mind and i could do with holiday without having to think so much lol. Speaking of whr i'll go next, i heard that results are coming out soon and i am seriously preparing for the very worse. Im not trying to step gerek or what la but i guess no expectation no disappointment no regret. I dont like it when i regret cus it'll affect my whole decision making.
New year is coming and im so excited. Its not like everyday is the 1st of jan(nor is everyday the 28th of dec) but the 1st of jan is so special. Its like a brand new start cus its a whole new year, time to start over again. Plus 2011 i'll be starting at a new place and thus i shall create a new image for myself and just start over. Or maybe not. Or maybe yes and i shall proceed to cutting my hair as short as navin's lol-.- The year will end by the end of this fri and its just so fast. But no, i guess my things-of-2010-and-to-wrap-up-the-year words will come later. For now, i just want to enjoy whats left of 2010.
I have identified it. The only reason why i still entertain is because there is this niggling voice in my head, saying in full hope that you have change. And now that i realise that this hope is what has driven me back to you, i shall eliminate it. Kill the hope kill the hope. No thoughts of you, no more going back.