{Thursday, December 9, 2010} 9:10 AM
Hiiiiii guess who is back!!!!!! One month has been long hard tiring mad crazy and now i am going to wash my hand of evrythg and you can take over from here. My cuzz from far away is coming over and im sexcited cus i have seen them for like 5 years, its been that super long. But at the same time i am really not sexcited cus it means i cant watch netball finals and i cant go for the event of the year, the main highlight of this year - nin's kenduri. I am sad la cus its been so long and i promised her i'd go. I PROMISE. Makes me feel bad and i hope she understands(eventhough if it was me i wouldnt). I guess i wont hold it against her if she goes all cranky with me and gets mad but just knw i am really sorry.

Anyway ive been thinking abt what ahtong told me yesterdays and it keeps nagging in my head. He told me that if the guy says no, then accept it and move on. He said a whole bunch of things too and i should have probably listen, if not for the noisy surrounding. But what he said abt moving on is so true i mean come on im not even legal yet and dah cakap and emo emo mcm tk dpt jumpe calon suami-.- Puhhhhhhlease i should just have fun and not take things too seriously. "Boys or no boys, why worry? Im still here what" Ahtong the best!!

Kay i ask you, have you ever walk pass that one person, the one you share your laughs and tears with? And while you're walking pass them you have to resist the urge to talk to them cus things are different and saying hi is not as easy as it was before. People change and this alters the relationship. It makes you feel an outsider in a place where you once felt so welcomed. Its like you're being shut out from the happy circle and you no longer fit in. Its like . . .