19TH DAY ):
You knw some ppl so retarded. They get so shock when ppl they're not close with knw abt their life update. Im shock too, that they're shock. I mean welcome to the 21st century dude. There's facebook, twitter, tumblr and ppl have eyes and ears. We read and see and hear things so it is very difficult to keep your life update a secret. And btw dude, i can see ur eyes aimed at someone, its so obvious puhlease. So its kinda funny that you're shock. I mean if you dont want ppl to knw, i wouldnt la, then you shud jst keep the rs to yourself and not share with the whole world and say things online like"youre the only one i need". It makes ppl suspicious and curious till they watch your every move to find one who that one is. So you knw its weird that ppl want to keep their life a secret yet they do all this. Idk whats their motive, maybe to attract the one but it attracts other ppl too. So there's pro and con, but seriously, is the disadvantage worth it? Maybe these ppl shud just open up and realise that alright, ppl knw about my life, i shud find out abt theirs. They shud stop talking and whispering and labelling the person a busybody behind their back cus its not nice hey?
Mfh finally decided to stop talking to me today, so i ended up being sad and moody and cranky the whole two hrs. He got all emo and touchy and when i tried to talk he looked irritated and im damn piss lah cus if u dont have pms can dont act like u have it? Its so boring and irritating when this happen cus then i'd have to wait till he talks to me again and sometimes it takes ages cus he need to "process and think abt the whole situation". I dont get it, why ppl let themselves be sad? Darlings dont you realise being sad is a choice? Its all in the head bby. Tell yourself you'll be happy and you will! Dont be sad for so long, it clouds your judgement and you cant tink straight and it affects your mood and bring no goodness to you. I wish i had magic powder to sprinkle to the sad ppl so i can help make it better. Tadi i tried sodium chloride on nina and told her make a wish and pretend that airplanes in the night skies are shooting stars, but it only made her sneeze more, so maybe i need smthg more powerful, like potassium chloride. Tapi takot reactive sgt and teros KABOOOOOOOM! Hhahaha retardness-.-
Today is the 19th day and i knw i sound desperate counting but i cant help myselfffffffffff. I thought i saw him but as the day progress he's nowhere to be found. I asked arnd and they said he nvr come. I immediately feel like fainting cus i thought i saw a ghost since i miss him too much. Then they told me he ended early and i was like okaaaaaaaaaaaay. I let myself sulk and feel miserable for 3hrs and then i got my mood back and decided he's not coming back so i was crying in the rain and tried to let go and when i took out my hp, tada there's his message. Ugh i want him so badly and he ignores it and i shud ignore it but i knw if ure in my place u cant ignore it too. NLR knws how badly i want him cus when i asked her what she hopes to achieve with her prince charming she cant give a quick ans. When she asked me i told her i want to be with him, during sadness and happiness, during sickness and health(alahai mcm marriage vows, takpe practice je ni HAHA) and she looked stunned, shocked i knew what i want(alah babe u jgn step tak amaze, i saw the look on your face!). Idk if tmrw will be the 20th cus u knw what, I dont care cus for what do i wanna care for someone who doesnt care bout me or anythg else except himself for that matter!
I know i know, everyday blog long long nvr study ah? Sometimes i forget u see, that its coming and i keep telling myself i study alrdy what. Maklumlah nw tchrs cant give us hmwk or test which is a call for celebration but sometimes we need it to remind us to study! I shud open my bag, dig all the papers and tape it to my wardrobe and arnd my hse so i can rmbr to study.
And babygirls, i tak nak advice you all, you all dah mature and old enough to decide for yourself. Everyone handles the situation differently and my five cent worth of advice is that all this happen due to the reason you all cant understand why other ppl act and handle the situation in a certain way. Babygirls, everyone handles situation in a different way and if the person handle it differently than you then its not a valid reason for you to not talk to them. Try to understand and if you cant understand, ask! Whats the worse that can happen, you get screamed at maybe, or scratched, or maybe the hubungun terus putus but that happens everyday(not that im praying this is the case). Just be brave, like the lion in dorothy, and ask for the truth and embrace it. People and people and sometimes we change our minds. Just breathe.
Tmrw im gonna sit with jkm and friends and lek one corner while you all settle this. Feet's my teacher so i just a loyal student and follow.
Ive said my piece. Penat k bby type and with the heart to heart talk lagi, wow jari hurts. Time to study. Time now is 8.52pm and my bedtime is 9pm. So maybe tmrw blaja? Heh kay u all dont follow me, i not so good example hahha retardness thats the name of the post-.-
Ciao babies