Can someone tell me now, why must we go through teenage life? Can i just skip my way and just head straight to twenty where i know i am wiser and these feelings, confusion, questions i have are just mere childishness? I am tired, tired to entertain my feelings, tired of thinking, tired of having. My heart is in pain, my head is in a mess. All these exhaustion, mentally physically and emotionally, is taking a toll on me.
"What does it feel to have someone you love bullshit about you when you are just an earshot away? You are suppose to support me, to give me confidence, to educate. Not just demote me, talk ill of me, make me feel so low. Where am i in your life? Sometimes i feel like im invisible, like im such a see through. Cant you see im trying? No obviously you cant. You are just too busy with other things to notice. I want to be able to tell you everything and anything. But looking at the comments you just keep making, i rather not. You are suppose to be there when i need you, someone i can lean and cry on. Not someone who brings me down and makes me cry. You are suppose to be my MUM"
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