{Wednesday, November 4, 2009} 8:37 PM
My days are busy than ever and im so excited, no kidding. Tmrw and fri will be concentrating on NACLI exhibition and grad nite. Then next week, one week at RP, then after that grad nite, then after that project accolade award ceremony, then NYAA award ceremony. By then will be 20 nov and then i'll be off to holiday for a month and when i come back i have more interesting to look forward too (:

Why am i sungguh semangat? CAUSE ALL THIS WILL TAKE MY MIND OFF THE FCKSHIT IM FACING NOW!! I'd rather have my head stress, thinking about logical things, like how should the prog be like on grad nite rather than thinking bout ................................................
I am boiling inside me now, i have so much to scream about but it'll bring me no where so i better shut up. But seriously, in a team, everyone need to work hard so the success can be achieved. If only one or two giving their best, bile mau maju! Serious fckshit, kinda unfair cause everyone is giving their best, putting in so much effort, yet still have ppl bringing us down. Bloody unfair, then again what is fair? But now its better, cause the reflection is no more cloudy, so no more cloudy judgement. Everything is out in the clear blue sky now, waiting for time to make it a clear sunny beautifuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuul day (:

Today i and wan sin and ivy got the photo montage, emcee script, prog for grad nite ready and sent to tchr. Found out that still alot need to be improve, script and prog like total outta topic and i was like holding my tongue tightly from hurling those words. But then again, i tink about it, i feel thankful cause atleast now i have ample time to change evrythg and make it better. See, the keyword being consistency (:

and aku kene ckp ni eh. kau tau aku kan, klau mmg aku dah tak nak lyn, mmg aku tak nak lyn. klau aku dah bosan, mmg aku tinggalkan, mmg aku buat bodoh. kau marah kat aku psl tak jawab call and psl aku jerit name kau hari tu. mmg ah, salah aku. aku tau kau tak suke aku jerit name kau out loud, and aku sorry, sincerely sorry i did it k. yg psl jawab call, kau tau aku bukannye suke pegang ngan hp aku. and again, aku sorry. tapi tadi eh, serious fucking shit ah eh. kau mcm tak kesah perasaan aku. tegor aku pon tak. aku tau kau bingit, kau boleh tarik aku gi toilet ke, gi blakang sch ke, and jerit at aku all you want kan. kau boleh blang aku ape masalah kau, psl aku kwn kau and aku kesah. kau marah kat aku, aku phm and i am sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, am sorry. salah aku, aku tak deny. im not blaming you now, im not turning this issue around. its just dat, klau kau ade bende yg disturbing kau, kau boleh blang aku. aku kwn kau and i will help you.
cause it you and me together forever.
klau tak pasal aktiviti aktiviti yang melucukan di dalam ava room tadi, mmg aku dah nangis ah eh skrg. setiap malam aku dgr cerite psl kau and f.r or i.h or some othr ppl. aku tlg kau selesaikan, aku kasi kau advice. tapi cerite aku? psl mss? ade kau kesah? aku tau kau tak suke die, sebab tu aku kurangkan cerite psl aku and mss. honestly, aku pon nak org yg dgr luahan hati aku, aku nak org advice aku, aku nak org tlg aku selesaikan cerite aku. but i knw you hate him so much, thats why i never say what i honestly feel inside.
but im telling you know, i just feel like wanting to stop breathing.

WHOEVER SAID TREAT PPL THEY WAY YOU WANT THEM TO TREAT YOU, THATS FCKSHIT RUBBISH KAY. I AM GONNA BE MEAN AND CRUEL AND EVIL AND HYPOCRYTIC AND UNCARING CAUSE THATS WHAT EVERYONE IS BEING.

fckshit.

















i want to skip life in reality and just sit at home and entertain Aisha and listen to hear telling me nonsensical stories. At least, i feel true happiness, she cracks me up like no one. Despite my muffled tears, i can still hear my laughters.