I seriously wish we could see the future, so we could avoid all of this happening. I wish we were back in sec1, where we all we still very much clueless, and very innocent(as compared to now). Friends are falling apart, relationships are taking an unexpected turn. Enemies turns to best friends, best friends turn to enemies. Your bestfriend's girlfriend become your girlfriend, your bestfriend's boyfriend suddenly is your only love. This shouldnt be happening, its taking a toll on everyone, whether we wanna admit or not.
I heard bout today and it just breaks my heart. Things like this arent suppose to happen, at least not to us. But yet, it has happened! I cant believe its her, and when i heard the news, i felt tears on my cheeks. She's my close friend, she told me mostly everything, i told her mostly everything. Then how come did she turn out this way? Its like i've failed being her friend, i didnt stop her in time. God, what kind of friend am i?):
Every day and night, i hope that you'll snap out of your havoc life and look arnd you. Other people probably dont really care bout you, but i still do. However, no matter how hard i try, you just wont stop. In fact, you just keep doing it. I want to advice you, but i sort of give up. Probably my fault too, i didnt try harder. But you must know me now, i have no patience. I guess all i can do now is hope, hope that you'll change, change for the better.
You know how we can be bestfriends, and suddenly behave like strangers on the streets? Imagine that, you'll get a picture of what i feel. Just because im not always there, you know you can count on me, you know i will always make time to hear you out. Now however, seems like there's a replacement. It sucks, to stop being the first to know everything. So i tink im gonna stop caring now. As long as you're happy, im fine with it. And you know where to find me when you suddenly need me again.
Fuck i need Ramly now):
Maths is taking a toll on me now, i wanna cry looking at the questions,
I cry when i cant produce a decent answer):
And yes Suhaila, KEKASIH GELAPKU, KEKASIH COKLATKU, KEKASIH GENDUTKU):
Oh how i miss them, how i miss to just check my inbox and see their sms and know that i can rely on them to hear me swear and talk cockstories about my day.
But gotta move on now, let it be the past.
Seriously, i need Ramly and all my time now.
Can i please quit sch so i wont be wasting my time there and instead just focus on getting back on track with my friendship relationships?
Fuck.