{Friday, June 5, 2009} 10:30 PM
You want to know what i've been doing this whole week? GOING TO SCHOOL. And i think i spend more time there compared to a normal sch day. Omg this is making me siccccccccccccccck. Still, my heart goes out to the sec4 who are x10000000000 more tired than i can ever imagine. I hope that they do extremely well for their O's this year (so that when i go sec4 next year, it wont be so hectic! xD)

Next week i will be at sch everyday too, for guitar of course. I thought after syf i could relax but nooooooooo, we're now GOLD STANDARD ROCKSTARS so we have alot of performance to do and that means alot of practices! Ughh blearghhhh arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. But i bet the stress is on the sec1's, cause they have to learn the new song in a short time and i hope they practice and really do it well! (so that the seniors wont get scolding for them not playing very well! xD)

This weekend i have errands to do and places to go. I dont want to doooooo i want to stay at homeeeeeee and sleep under my comfy big comforter all day looooooong. But i have to face it sooner or later (i pick later, please!)

First week of june holiday is coming to an end soon and i better enjoy the rest of the three weeks before WE ALL KNOW WHAT START! Actually, im looking forward to it, except for that tiny weeny bit of the early morning. Uh-huh, that i dont like. So must enjoy the remaining three weeks without WE, or rather, I KNOW WHAT!

I almost did, almost. It was very close. But after i saw what i saw, it reminded me of the incident and the feeling and intention went away as fast as it came. This aint gonna be easy, its very difficult for me, and i do miss you. Im listening to my heart and not thinking rationally, stupid i know. Its just that, i dont think it matters to you anymore.