{Monday, December 29, 2008} 9:04 PM
orang ckp kan, klau orang pandang rendah kat kau, kau prove kat dorang yang kau boleh make it, yang kau bukan seperti ape dorang kate. tapi, bagaimane klau aku dah cube prove to them yang aku boleh pull it thru, aku dah cube sedaye upaye aku tapi aku tetap di pandang rendah kerana tetap ade orang lagi bagos dari aku ? bagaimane ? cakap yang atleast aku dah put in my best and im proud of it ? good idea but as humans, its never enuf for us kan ? we all want to win , to be the best and only the best . and there will always always always be someone who is always always always better than us . aku dah penat dan bosan sebab sering dibandingkan dgn orang . aku tak pandai mcm drg , aku benci maths dan aku tak rase aku boleh pull it off no matter how hard i tried cause i really did for the previous exam and i am not gonna be antare org org yang dpt biasiswa pergi sambong belajar psl let me repeat , i am not as clever!
aku tak mintak jadi anak sulung , aku tak mintak untuk not be so clever , aku tak mintak dapat adek bnyk , aku tak mintak untuk jadi sensitive , aku tak mintak be so weak when it comes to being compared , aku tak mintak untuk jadi manja , aku tak mintak untuk slalu having to fight for you attention . aku tak nak untuk dilahirkan! aku tak mintak ni semue!

tapi whatever lah .
aku sedar diri aku sape, dan aku akan tetap cube untuk be a good daughter , and live up to your standards . cause youre my parents , the one who raised me , the one who didik me to be who and where i am now , the one who took care of me , who pick me up when i fall , who gives me evrythg i want .
even if you have hurt me , my feelings , i will still be a good daughter and live up to your standards cause your my parents and thats the very least i could do for you .
ily you , and i knw you love me too . but its not enough .