{Friday, November 21, 2008} 8:53 PM
Hello everyone ,
today i went to the hospital .
Su looked real sick ,
and she doesnt want to eat .
I want her to get better real quick ,
but if she wont eat , den how kan .
I jst hope she'll be able to eat soon ,
and get better .
Ily su .

Den i went to town ,
to get some things with aqilah and her cousin .
I guess im all ready for the trip ,
i think ?
Oh well .

And you knw ,
its like vry sad aye ,
my parents cant get day off to send me ,
su will be recovering ,
liyana and feet have GG ,
nina and aqilah and hany aint sure if they're coming ,
so like wat the hell right .
Oh well .

Oh btw ,
to answer your question ,
yes , su is obviously more imprt ,
and i do love her alright .
but i dont think you knw me that much aye ?
im not the type of person ,
who likes to visit sick ppl .
its jst not me .
even when hany hospitalised ,
i didnt visit her often .
why ?
cause i dont feel comfortable around sick ppl .
i mean, i would call and text asking her condition .
i dont have to be thr to show that i care, kan ?
even if i was sick and hospitalised ,
i wouldnt want ppl to be crowding over me alot of the time ,
cause i aint no display ,
and it is the hospital for heaven's sake ,
not a party alright .
and i dont want ppl to come and visit me ,
only to look at me, and cry cry cry .
a lil bit of tears is alright ,
but cry all time , come onnnnnnnnnnn .
im alrdy sick and crying ,
and you wanna cry ,
it'll jst make me feel guilty cause youre crying because of me!
i want ppl to visit me ,
and make me laugh and cry and forget my pain .
so thats my explanation yo bitch ,
different ppl have different reaction towards sick ppl ,
and this is my reaction .
i admit im being a coward to write all this here ,
and not tell it to your face ,
but then again ,
THIS IS ABOUT ME , AND IM A COWARD, SO WHAT .
( im sorry if this paragraph has hurt anyone,
i jst wanted to clear things with this specific person .
you may ask who ,
but remember , im a coward to tell the name ;D )

alright ,
take care all ,
and 3 more days ;D