stop it you gundu head .
whatever you say ,
i'll make sure i never pay attention to it ,
i'll make sure it wont affect the decision im making here .
you said you are bad at making decision .
i guess i have to do it then .
ive been with you for quite some time ,
and enough is enough alright .
when stuff like this happen , then you start talking to me all .
if not , you'll ignore me as tho im invisible .
well guess what boy ,
im done with waiting ,
and it fcking obvious there's no hope left here .
so why dont you and i get a life ,
one that doesnt involve each other .
i spent whole day and night thinking of what to do now,
and ive realised that i shud jst let go ,
and let other things come in .
i shudnt keep holding onto the "memories" ,
because that is what is keeping me from the facing the present moment now .
i still love you , no doubt .
cause you knw ,
i can never stop loving anyone i used to love before ,
but i jst have to get myself used to their absence .
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I feel all pinky today , hoho .
so anyway , today was splendid !
i got my results , and sudah tentu ade chance promoted to sec3exp .
evrythg is all either A or B ( i hope -.- ) but maths , hah , no hope baby .
so whatever , check papers and stuff ,
and then had the aesthetic thing .
nissy looked cute enough , duh .
and evrythg was nice .
suare amillea power like hell ,
and we even stood up to applaud , hoho .
i have a very nice time today .
cause ive decided to have a fulfilling life .
:D
after sch , went all the way home and get my guitar .
i reached on time and realised evryone else wasnt there .
so went down and saw love !
heart skipped a beat , hands got all sweaty , butterflies in stomach...
yea all those stuff , ha-ha .
talked talked to him and he had to go home .
walked all the way to bus stop and had chitchat session .
and thanks for doing what you did at jst before the bus arrive ,
cheeky ah you !
:D
guitar was super duper fun ,
and i had a damnit hell of a time .
its been a long time since ive enjoyed myself .
amirul was pain in the ass , as usual .
but its nice having the old him back ,
yay yay .
after that raudhah walked home with me ,
and we talked and talked :D
life is interesting i tell you .
the way things work out in the end ,
is jst so unpredictable .
what you wish for ,
you not necessarily get it .
and of course , you'd be sad and mad cause you didnt get what you wanted ,
that was how i felt anyway .
i always thought i knew wht i wanted ,
but actually , i dont .
i jst jump to the first good opportunity i come across ,
i dont do " cross reference " and think twice over it .
and yes , human nature for me to regret making that decision after that .
but oh well , even if i regret for the rest of my life ,
what is done cant be undone .
and maybe if i didnt make that "regretful" decision before ,
i wudnt end up here .
so you see ,
evrythg happens for a reason ,
ada hikmah disebalik segalanya .
time for me to go ,
i have a fulfilling life to live , remember ?
and oh yea ,
SEVENTEEN LOVE BABY !
:D